I can control way more/less than I believe.
disconnect 050/237
[7 June 2026]
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The sky is a dark, pale light blue.
A 60-something-year-old man sits opposite me.
Thin grey hair, white-blue striped long-sleeved shirt, blue jeans, old Adidas running shoes.
The watch on his left wrist shows 23 degrees, cloudy, 15:53, 31 May.
On the other side of the aisle sits a 20-something-year-old woman.
Shoulder-length brown hair, grey t-shirt, black trousers, new Dr. Martens.
The person she is talking to on the phone tells her that it is supposed to rain heavily soon.
She interrupts the conversation to text the friend she is about to meet and ask her to bring an umbrella.
My eyelids are heavy.
I have to resist falling asleep on the S-Bahn.
Waves of tiredness pull me out of the reality in front of my eyes.
Into… the reality of my mind?
What if the awaited happens differently than expected?
What if the awaited does not happen differently – but nothing happens?
See things as they are.
See what seems connected separately.
See what feels separate connected.
Pause, listen.
Appreciate what is, respond.
Love
Space.
We can fill it, we can let it fill itself.
Maybe, there is nothing to fill.
glg Soda Paapi
PS: The exhibition of my ambient documentary Why don’t you start to fall in love with where You are RIGHT NOW? will take place 23–25 July at Culterim | former Rossmann, Brunnenstr. 105–109, 13355 Berlin.
I can control way more/less than I believe.
disconnect 050/237
[7 June 2026]
-----------------------
The sky is a dark, pale light blue.
A 60-something-year-old man sits opposite me.
Thin grey hair, white-blue striped long-sleeved shirt, blue jeans, old Adidas running shoes.
The watch on his left wrist shows 23 degrees, cloudy, 15:53, 31 May.
On the other side of the aisle sits a 20-something-year-old woman.
Shoulder-length brown hair, grey t-shirt, black trousers, new Dr. Martens.
The person she is talking to on the phone tells her that it is supposed to rain heavily soon.
She interrupts the conversation to text the friend she is about to meet and ask her to bring an umbrella.
My eyelids are heavy.
I have to resist falling asleep on the S-Bahn.
Waves of tiredness pull me out of the reality in front of my eyes.
Into… the reality of my mind?
What if the awaited happens differently than expected?
What if the awaited does not happen differently – but nothing happens?
See things as they are.
See what seems connected separately.
See what feels separate connected.
Pause, listen.
Appreciate what is, respond.
Love
Space.
We can fill it, we can let it fill itself.
Maybe, there is nothing to fill.
glg Soda Paapi
PS: The exhibition of my ambient documentary Why don’t you start to fall in love with where You are RIGHT NOW? will take place 23–25 July at Culterim | former Rossmann, Brunnenstr. 105–109, 13355 Berlin.